I like Halloween in Australia because I can buy 5 packs of fun-size chocolates in preparation and know that at the end of the day the only bitch eating them will be me because no bitch kid trick-or-treats around here no matter how hard Woolworths tries to make it a thing.
i wanna lie on the floor and not think for a month or two.
We go forward.
This is too deep to comprehend.
I THOUGHT THIS WAS GOING TO BE FUNNY
This fucked me up
You can hear him say oh snap
I swear I’m okay. I’m just tired. And no, not just the kind of tired where I’ve had a long day, but the kind of tired where I slept for 7 hours last night, and yet, I feel as though I haven’t had a good night’s rest in months. The kind of tired where taking a deep breath feels like carrying twice my body weight. The kind of tired where I feel as though I’ve been searching for you as if you were the last piece of buried treasure on this earth. The kind of tired that I fear no amount of sleep can ever cure.
Is it just a bad night or am I getting bad again?
You promised you’d be there for me. And you’re gone, just like everyone else, you just left. Like I was nothing, like I am nothing.
Steal a tube of lipstick from a drugstore. Hands shaking, heart pounding. Say a cheery hello to the cashier. The colour doesn’t suit you but that’s the least of your worries. Wear it every day for months. Go to a foreign city alone. Drink absinthe with a motley crew in an empty bar. Dance until five in the morning. Get up four hours later and bask in the sun. Smile at strangers. Drink too much coffee. Walk for miles. Think about anything but where you’re going. Sit down in front of something in an art gallery and look at it until it reveals something. Look again. Leave the house with a notebook, a novel, and a camera. Don’t come home until you’ve used all three. Walk through a familiar city at an unfamiliar time. Kiss someone whose name you’ll never know. Run until your lungs feel like caving in. Fight for it. nobody tells you this, but you have to fight for it. To be here, in this moment, in the present. Drag yourself out of the past. Have another beer. Stop panicking about the future. Laugh at the men who tell you you’re pretty. You are more than that. Put on your brightest lipstick and go to the grocery store. Breathe in. Breathe out. Sit by the ocean and listen to the waves. Feel your heart beating. Climb a mountain tall enough to make your head spin. Feel your heart beating, always beating.
I ruined myself for a lot of people that werent even worth it
My pride is stronger than my feelings. Don’t try to play me. I could think of you 24/7 and you still wouldn’t hear from me.